decided to try tumblr.
www.proscrit.tumblr.com/

& so, im going back to being me.

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
who do you think you are?

some people do things that mislead others,
some people get misleaded easily.
some people dont think,
some people think too much.
some people dont really mean what they say,
some people take every word too seriously.
some people know what they want,
some people dont know whether if they really want it.
some people wants to be original,
some people are just trying to replicate.
some people wait for their turns,
some people create their own opportunities.
some people dont want to talk about little things,
some people emphasise on little things,
hoping others will notice and make it big.
some people are blind at heart,
some people seen it all,
and choose to blindfold themselves to prevent their eyes from bleeding.
some people are good at acting,
some people are equally good at it.

you dream a little too much,
and im gonna shoot down that dream of yours.

we're all evil at heart.

& the best part of it is waking someone up from a dream,
then watch them realise that they had made a fool of themselves.
;seeming unintentionally.

PASSED OUT :D
haha
yea, just this morning.
haha poc was not bad?
lol
quite successful lah
the juniors were awesome
quite enjoyable
the speeches from the juniors and sirs were somewhat touching and funny haha
anyways a big thankyou to all who contributed to the poc :D

quite happy finally passed out le
lol
4years already D:
hmmm.. 
lets try to recall what happened...

sec1 was okay
lol
actually didnt wanted to join this cca de haha
actually most of us didnt haha
but nvm lurhs
was very anti-social,
people play games i go hide haha
most of the time we just do drills uh?haha

sec2 was if im not wrong was the year tht sir bp came?
lol training was ...
haha nco training D:
HAHA
you know what it is like uh lol
ultimate physical training, rescue mission etc
kena scolded for like almost everything?lol
budden its kinda worth it lah
got to know them better
went to parades tgt 
somewhat bonding?

sec3 was D:
haha
we got help out in planning? 
learnt alot
had to meet up so often to discuss and make changes to our plans
haha from then, we became like somewhat good friends uh?
go out together
uots, outings, dinner @ kim sam leng like every friday?
haha
went for snco with sam, sean and jiankai.
got to know them better.
disiao-ing jiankai throughout the course with sean was lol
haha at least we made him more outspoken?lol
after that he became another crapper lah lol
we took over the unit
haha it wasnt easy at the start
learn to work tgt with each other lol
PDS was a great experience
worked so hard together
uots at bishan active/carparks
spent so many hours on it
starting we were a mess
then we got better
and we finally achieved something as a team
'sncos chalet' was quite cool uh?lol
they spent about 2hrs+ to teach me how to ride a bike 
and im proud to say that i can ride one alr :D
remember entertaining that little girl that night?
we were like trying to make her happy with the fireworks thingy
spent the night playing poker until everybody start saying "sian ji pua" haha
fly kite and got it stucked on the tree haha
hmm...
i remember having quite a few bbq within a few months lol
playing frisbee and waterbomb tgt haha

sec4 le :D
haha
cca orientation haha
setting up the booths tgt,
chasing the sec1s to try to get them in
stayed bck late in school to watch campfire haha
camp was lol
we planned alot of things that kena rejected
eg. amazing race around whole bishan-tpy area?
haha we even tried to calculate the exact distance etc
but it was rejected haha
but we learnt from our mistakes
spent the whole day setting up the rescue bunk?
paste garbage bags until damn sian
came out with more efficient ways to do that?haha
played monopoly cards?lol
moving the benches and tables around in the parade square
watching people play blindmice was entertaining
trying to put up a front during the nco turn out when we were all so darn tired haha
planned the service day tgt?
haha cpr in chinese was ...
lol but i somehow managed to do it with you all de help
celebrated each others' birthday?
play pool/arcade and the dinner where we drew crying faces on the feedback card
lol quite no life uh?
budden quite fun lol
'study group' was rather useless uh considering we wasted half of the time
budden was enjoyable uh
get to listen to people singing, talk nonsense, lunch tgt lol.
hmm.. this is all i could remember for now lol

today we passed out already
haha, maybe we will not be as close as we are now,
but i hope that we will still remeber what we had together.
the times we spent together slacking, doing work etc
and suanning each other just to see their pissed faces,
but knowing that they wont be really mad at us. lol
just wanted to let you all know that 
i really appreciate your friendship
and the help you all have given me throughout  these years.
i will definitely miss the times we had.
thankyou very much :D

this post is dedicated to all ncd ppl
especially the ncos who put in alot of efforts to make the poc a success.
and most importantly my beloved sncos batch mates :
kee, chong, ti, giam, koh, yeo, hamdi

& i forgot how it feels like.

blank in your eyes.
the pair i cant trust.
i think i knew it all along.

i give up.

; its 2am and im cursing your name.

what will i do without you all.

holidays :D
hahha finally uh.
budden so much homeworkkkkk.
so many papers to do den one takes about 2hrs lol.
damn sian.
end up we all didnt sign the clt form.
only akmal and kee did.
lol 
kee act smart uh, he thought if he hand in first 
den we'll all hand in,
budden end up we decided all not to go.
haha den too late le, cant withdraw.
haha tough decision uh.
discussed with kai and th quite abit
den like all indecisive
haha
final decision is not to go uh
like damn bad to mrloo D:
haha nvm uh, 
he'll understand de lah.
10more days to passingout le 
:D
haha
aiya budden i think pass out of not is no difference de lah 
end up we'll still go cca quite often de lor lol.
at least during this holiday?
lol.
downloaded forsakeworld last night
the game was ...
quite funny lah
talk to unicorn and kill branch monsters
lol okok lah.
quite entertaining when you're bored.

bye.

im afraid it'll turn out the same,
again.

; its coming again.
& this time, im afraid.

tmw officially last day of school le :D
haha finally lah.
budden got what chem test.
prepared to fail.
haha so much work not done.
so more work to be completed.lol
hais hvnt decide for the clt thing uh,
summore tmw need hand in le.
pop soon(:
budden if signup then like no more pop le uh.
lol.
dontknow uh.
tmw den see how lurhs.
hais tough decision.
sian still need write my own testimonials lol
does that even make any sense?
write for yourself?lol
kays,
bye.

can i trust you this time?

; Im losing myself

siannnnnn
monday only D:
damn tired lurhs
did the ss research thingy damn stupid
just copy paste uh.

chi was -.-
hahahaha
anyhow write i bet she'll scold me lurhs
wah she like some stalker-.-
siao de uh.
haha

went out with doreen and sherlby on sat.
went to somerset, cityhall, suntec etc...
haha
walk walk talk talk until abt evening then go home le lurhs.
:D
haha today is like some 7th year anniversary of our friendship
lol cool uh.

sian damn irritated.
shall go watch familyguy lol.

bye.

is that all you're worth?

;a feeling of sadness seemingly without a cause

you only know my name, not me.

sian 
study camp finally ended :D
HAHA
no comments.
its almost like normal schooldays uh
but more slack lol
do those stupid mock papers lol
chem paper1 all tikam
paper2 anyhow write, only completed half the paper?lol
chinese even worse, paper 1 only did the second part didnt write the letter
cos i spent 40min + flipping through the dictionary-.-
paper2 did too slowly so the second compre never do at all lol
after tht stayed to watch tchoukball
the girls won :D
haha they damn zai uh
congrats :D
the matches like damn hiong lah
they slam the ball like siao lol
ball keep flying lol
chey, i dont even know what im talking about.
too tired.
bye. 

why cant i see anyone else except you?

sian uh
tired D:
budden hair still wet cant sleep lol

just came hoome not long ago,
About 1hr + ?
actually thats quite long lol
morning went to cityhall and bugis until about evening
den went to j8 to join th,yb,jk,xj,sean for dinner
lol damn sian
den we went to buy school shoes with jk while yb and xj go buy birthday cake
den the xj go hide it behind his back thought we cant see-.-
haha after that went up to cut birthday cake
quite fail uh
cos its like for me and jk de budden our birthdays are like a few weeks ago liao
haha
went to arcade,
th and jk went to play the table thing then actually is jk win de lah
budden the machine got prob didnt even acknowledge jk points lol
so his score is like 0 lol
after that dont know what to do,
so we decided to go watch the spp rally lol
i tell them its people's party liao they still lol me say is some progressive party-.-
stupid lah its like diff party i think.
so we went and stood there for about 3hrs until 10pm
haha actually quite interesting lah not bad
budden the person behind us damn irritating keep shouting
whatever the person say then he : yes yes yes
damn loud then damn sudden
shock people only
after that went home le uh
quite random lah lol
i mean watch a rally?seriously lol
quite cool uh

narhs sian
incase you havent realised the theme and the song changed
haha the song quite nice lah
theme is almost the same budden the colour abit diff.
kays, bye.
lol.

sians.
quite long never go online le.
haha
online also nothing to do uh.
getting more forgetful and blur-er each day.
that day left hp under table.
den left my spects on the bench
ytd left it on the table almost forgot
then today left it in the toilet.
lol-.-
should buy a string and tie my hp to my hand-.- 
siannnnnnns.
study camp coming-.-
go discovery center? lol
how fun.

hate school.
& most of the people in it.
some should understand.
why would those random gossipers do that?
i dont even understand how those rumourrs come about-.-
narhs.
few more months to leave this place.

bye suckers.

;& you shouldnt have asked.